I wish your eyes would dim and your teeth rot
How else would I stop staring
at the spark in your eye when you look at me
knowing it is not meant for me but it is just the way you look
at the curve of your lips and boyish grin
knowing that your smile is just how you smile and nothing more
I want to destroy you, but just enough for me
to be beautiful to the ugly you
that your foolish mind would think me witty and bright and mysterious
that your weak heart would pound in your chest when I stand close to you
For you to stand in my place and I in yours
because we both don't know things
I don't know how you feel: soaring high, observing a
the car drives us along the highway
and the night breeze is relentless
the sky a deep, deep, hypnotic blue
yet starless, barren
a slow, forgettable love song plays
stirring a strange rhythm within me
with the insane fantasy of romance
unable to coexist
with the purr of the car's engine,
the cool air and its humid touch,
your hand not holding mine
the ache
of two immiscible threads:
one in the muffled murmur of a love song
and the other right here in this car;
reality
It's late at night and I'm sitting on this ice cold bench at the park. All these stars are circling the sky, making sharp, silver slits across the dark, leathery canvas. It's almost kind of a beautiful way for nature to present death, having all these great, blazing dots bleed everywhere. I fidget with my friend's cigarette box as she and her boyfriend sit a distance away, having this romantic Valentine's night. They keep laughing and smiling until their faces could split in half. I can't stop fidgeting with the cigarette box that she'd passed me earlier that evening. I've never had the courage to smoke, you see, even though I so desperately
19.10.2006
Hey hi. Exam's 'round the corner and I've hardly even studied. I drew some mind maps today afternoon but I don't know if that's enough.
03.02.2007
Hello, I'm back. Somehow I don't see the point in living anymore. School prepares me for work. Work prepares me for life. Life prepares me for death. Isn't it all the same? Isn't it just all the same?
05.05.2008
I'm so exhausted, I can't take it anymore. It's the MYE (mid-year examination) now, yet I can't focus. Here I go again.
24.03.2009
I think dreams are purple. Nightmares, sweet dreams - both. Purple is threatening yet calm. Purple is poisonous yet dreamy. Purple is not blue and
it's always there that wisp of cobweb that groan of rust hanging on my mind refusing to be ignored.
but all the words just can't string together to play a tune and the empty paper weeps for solid ink.
the punctuations don't make sense and the patterns are undone.
--
what if our hearts could be connected like constellations?
someone else's words lingering on my unfaithful tongue.
you fill up my senses, like a night in the forest.
someone else's song tangled in my desperate vocal chords.
find our secret hearts, young mistress.
a cry that echoes my own.
wishing only ruins the heart. by A-Symmetry, literature
Literature
wishing only ruins the heart.
Dreams are dangerous. They whisk us to
places we would never dare to visit and
present us with the serpent's fruit.
All they ever do is sing of romance and risk
and things we never knew of and make us
want to play with Prometheus' flame.
Then, when our skin burns and melts,
we have no one to blame but ourselves.
Ever wanted to know where Love stood?
Between Life and Death, the Chinese said.
Love is born of Dream. Now, tell me
where Dream stands. Above Them all.
Now, exalted over life and death and love,
Dream stands proud and tall, mocking:
Sell me your soul for a whole new world.
Trust me. You see, if you dream for the moo
the daydream perches on my window sill,
singing its pretty melody, eyes closed,
with an entire summer sky stretched out behind it.
all i hear is last night when the other one was here.
the harsh wails of the dark haunt that pierces me
deep in the night when i was still tangled in angry dreams.
i am sure the yellow-breasted bird knows this.
it knows that all i can hear are the broken strings
and that my skin can never feel its soft feathers
the way it still remembers the vivid nightmares'
black, blood drawing claws and all its raw scars
so somewhere in its song there is pain
perhaps fresher than those on my skin.
but who's to
the world now:
if someone found a mermaid
we'd all say in one breath:
it is a lie.
romance now:
if a flower petal falls to the ground,
a couple whispers 'how romantic'
the rest murmur 'ah, decay'.
glory now:
if heroes and villians tread the edge, hand in hand,
we'd all think that death walks there too,
just two steps behind.
me now:
if i lied you'd think it's the truth,
and if i told the truth-
It does not stand for death.
It is clear that all of us find pain in light - however bright -
and warmth in the dark.
Their thorns belong with the black satin
unlike other coloured roses
whose thorns seem cunning, hidden amongst the happy petals.
It could be a night sky barren of stars.
If it is, and the constellations truly are falling,
I hope you catch the stardust.
I wish your eyes would dim and your teeth rot
How else would I stop staring
at the spark in your eye when you look at me
knowing it is not meant for me but it is just the way you look
at the curve of your lips and boyish grin
knowing that your smile is just how you smile and nothing more
I want to destroy you, but just enough for me
to be beautiful to the ugly you
that your foolish mind would think me witty and bright and mysterious
that your weak heart would pound in your chest when I stand close to you
For you to stand in my place and I in yours
because we both don't know things
I don't know how you feel: soaring high, observing a
the car drives us along the highway
and the night breeze is relentless
the sky a deep, deep, hypnotic blue
yet starless, barren
a slow, forgettable love song plays
stirring a strange rhythm within me
with the insane fantasy of romance
unable to coexist
with the purr of the car's engine,
the cool air and its humid touch,
your hand not holding mine
the ache
of two immiscible threads:
one in the muffled murmur of a love song
and the other right here in this car;
reality
It's late at night and I'm sitting on this ice cold bench at the park. All these stars are circling the sky, making sharp, silver slits across the dark, leathery canvas. It's almost kind of a beautiful way for nature to present death, having all these great, blazing dots bleed everywhere. I fidget with my friend's cigarette box as she and her boyfriend sit a distance away, having this romantic Valentine's night. They keep laughing and smiling until their faces could split in half. I can't stop fidgeting with the cigarette box that she'd passed me earlier that evening. I've never had the courage to smoke, you see, even though I so desperately
19.10.2006
Hey hi. Exam's 'round the corner and I've hardly even studied. I drew some mind maps today afternoon but I don't know if that's enough.
03.02.2007
Hello, I'm back. Somehow I don't see the point in living anymore. School prepares me for work. Work prepares me for life. Life prepares me for death. Isn't it all the same? Isn't it just all the same?
05.05.2008
I'm so exhausted, I can't take it anymore. It's the MYE (mid-year examination) now, yet I can't focus. Here I go again.
24.03.2009
I think dreams are purple. Nightmares, sweet dreams - both. Purple is threatening yet calm. Purple is poisonous yet dreamy. Purple is not blue and
it's always there that wisp of cobweb that groan of rust hanging on my mind refusing to be ignored.
but all the words just can't string together to play a tune and the empty paper weeps for solid ink.
the punctuations don't make sense and the patterns are undone.
--
what if our hearts could be connected like constellations?
someone else's words lingering on my unfaithful tongue.
you fill up my senses, like a night in the forest.
someone else's song tangled in my desperate vocal chords.
find our secret hearts, young mistress.
a cry that echoes my own.
wishing only ruins the heart. by A-Symmetry, literature
Literature
wishing only ruins the heart.
Dreams are dangerous. They whisk us to
places we would never dare to visit and
present us with the serpent's fruit.
All they ever do is sing of romance and risk
and things we never knew of and make us
want to play with Prometheus' flame.
Then, when our skin burns and melts,
we have no one to blame but ourselves.
Ever wanted to know where Love stood?
Between Life and Death, the Chinese said.
Love is born of Dream. Now, tell me
where Dream stands. Above Them all.
Now, exalted over life and death and love,
Dream stands proud and tall, mocking:
Sell me your soul for a whole new world.
Trust me. You see, if you dream for the moo
the daydream perches on my window sill,
singing its pretty melody, eyes closed,
with an entire summer sky stretched out behind it.
all i hear is last night when the other one was here.
the harsh wails of the dark haunt that pierces me
deep in the night when i was still tangled in angry dreams.
i am sure the yellow-breasted bird knows this.
it knows that all i can hear are the broken strings
and that my skin can never feel its soft feathers
the way it still remembers the vivid nightmares'
black, blood drawing claws and all its raw scars
so somewhere in its song there is pain
perhaps fresher than those on my skin.
but who's to
the world now:
if someone found a mermaid
we'd all say in one breath:
it is a lie.
romance now:
if a flower petal falls to the ground,
a couple whispers 'how romantic'
the rest murmur 'ah, decay'.
glory now:
if heroes and villians tread the edge, hand in hand,
we'd all think that death walks there too,
just two steps behind.
me now:
if i lied you'd think it's the truth,
and if i told the truth-
It does not stand for death.
It is clear that all of us find pain in light - however bright -
and warmth in the dark.
Their thorns belong with the black satin
unlike other coloured roses
whose thorns seem cunning, hidden amongst the happy petals.
It could be a night sky barren of stars.
If it is, and the constellations truly are falling,
I hope you catch the stardust.
we're back in delicate city drinking raspberry lattes like it's summer and nothing ever happened. your mother let you come outside to smell the yellow-colored roses in shop windows and reflect over the glazed smell of baking in the morning. she doesn't know i'm here. we sit on benches and chain smoke virginia slims like pastors' wives.
"where've you been?" i ask you.
"busy, i guess. hardly seeing anyone. but look, i'm progressing. i want you to know that."
raspberry, sticky-sweet, drips down our throats. it's been forever, lifetimes almost, since you first turned on me, tried hitting me like i was the reason you were suffering. the flash o
i.
There was once a mad man who sat on trains and wailed about his dead love.
No one laughed
but no one listened either.
ii.
See that freak right down the corridor, smiling and crying at the same time?
His eyes are voids and his hair the colour of his pain.
That's a man without skin.
iii.
Headlines: Drunk school girl murders seven classmates.
Could've been anyone.
iv.
Broken soldiers march on.
What they care about the most lies in the pocket closest to their hearts.
It is also riddled with bullets and dust.
v.
Blinded lovers might be considered lucky.
Armed: Sharp pen with magical ink. Watches: That crack in the closet door.
Current Residence: Here and Now and Alternate Realities. Operating System: Consideration. Personal Quote: Then it doesn't really matter which way you go.
I'm trying to ease my way back into dA, reading stuff, etc. Hopefully my inspiration will grow. As for now, I'll upload some old stuff that I've written during the time I've been away. Edited ones, of course. That's all I have to say, really.
As usual, writers die on dA sometimes. I'm dying here too. I refuse to deactivate my account for a few reasons, namely because I'm actually founder of a group (surprise, surprise, you can probably predict the level of activity in the group) and there are great people here (both friends and people I watch) and I just don't want to close this door for myself.
Hence I cannot guarantee me being here all the time.
So now I'm going to reply all those messages that I've been avoiding and roam about for a bit.
It is good to see that vibrant sheep cheerfully bopping on its way to somewhere. Hope you have been great. Missed talking to you! Have you had the time to read something great or to write?
Haha yes the sheep is still cute even now. I've been okay, most of the things I write are in my personal diary but the readings I do now are all for school ): How have you been!